What inspired me to work today?
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Va0ezWC2du4
That song has inspired me to keep working. Actually, it has inspired the entire project. There is just some sort of appeal to that song and video that reels me in, and makes me question the entire thing. I can't help but wonder what happens, and that's why I like it so much. I cannot get it off my mind, and I'm hoping using it as my project inspiration will help me cope with whatever is going on with the song and all my feelings towards it, because it's starting to bug me a bit.
Side note, I'm hoping to get some filming done tomorrow.
Going to keep it short for today, until tomorrow!
Tuesday, September 11, 2012
Monday, September 10, 2012
Working Journal: Day One.
Today was...interesting, to say the least.
I sat down to write out this video diary of sorts that I'm doing, and suddenly I was completely struck with panic. I felt that I couldn't write what I wanted to, that whatever I would put down would never be good enough to please myself, or to make someone sit and think, which is my goal while writing. But today, I was sitting in front of a computer screen typing and deleting and retyping and deleting again because I wasn't pleased. Every time I went to go back over my work, I just wanted to sit there and cry because I felt inadequate in a way I have honestly never felt, and I really hated it.
I have never been so unsure of my own writing as I was today.
Maybe it's because I know I'm going to be saying these things for you all to hear. That I am going to let you hear what I have to say, what my creative mind is thinking, and it's so frightening to me. If some of you recall from last year, whenever I would hear my plays being read, I wouldn't look at the actors. I wouldn't listen. I always felt a painful sensation inside my chest. I didn't want to hear my own words, for some reason or another. And to think that I am going to be acting out my own writing is a thing that scares me to no end.
But nonetheless, I will do it. Come hell or high water, I am determined to get this done. And it will be good! Bold Optimism, right?
On another note, I did get a decent amount of writing done today. I might end up scraping it and redoing it again, but I still have something there to work with, which is somewhat comforting. Now that all the nerves are out, I'm thinking tomorrow will be much better. I want to get all the writing for this done by the end of the day tomorrow, so I have some time to film and do some minimal editing.
Until tomorrow.
I sat down to write out this video diary of sorts that I'm doing, and suddenly I was completely struck with panic. I felt that I couldn't write what I wanted to, that whatever I would put down would never be good enough to please myself, or to make someone sit and think, which is my goal while writing. But today, I was sitting in front of a computer screen typing and deleting and retyping and deleting again because I wasn't pleased. Every time I went to go back over my work, I just wanted to sit there and cry because I felt inadequate in a way I have honestly never felt, and I really hated it.
I have never been so unsure of my own writing as I was today.
Maybe it's because I know I'm going to be saying these things for you all to hear. That I am going to let you hear what I have to say, what my creative mind is thinking, and it's so frightening to me. If some of you recall from last year, whenever I would hear my plays being read, I wouldn't look at the actors. I wouldn't listen. I always felt a painful sensation inside my chest. I didn't want to hear my own words, for some reason or another. And to think that I am going to be acting out my own writing is a thing that scares me to no end.
But nonetheless, I will do it. Come hell or high water, I am determined to get this done. And it will be good! Bold Optimism, right?
On another note, I did get a decent amount of writing done today. I might end up scraping it and redoing it again, but I still have something there to work with, which is somewhat comforting. Now that all the nerves are out, I'm thinking tomorrow will be much better. I want to get all the writing for this done by the end of the day tomorrow, so I have some time to film and do some minimal editing.
Until tomorrow.
Thursday, September 6, 2012
My Creative Past.
1. What was the first creative moment you remember?
This probably wasn't my first, but I remember when I was seven or eight and had just started playing bass clarinet. I was really excited about it, and my teacher at the time had given me a solo to work on. I wasn't the biggest fan of it, so I figured, how hard could it possibly be to write a song? So I gave it a go. It was called "Bear Dance" and it wasn't very good, but considering I was seven and knew (and still know) nothing about how to compose a piece of music, I'm impressed I got as far as I did.
2. Was there anyone there to witness it or appreciate it?
No. It was just me, alone in my room, trying to figure out how to compose. I never even showed it to my parents, but I liked it that way. I always shared everything I did with them, and this was the first time I didn't.
3.What is the best idea you've ever had?
The best idea? Probably the Come and Play with a Kitten Center. It's where there's a place (basically a giant playground built for kittens) for people to come and play with kittens. There would also be an option to adopt. It could also apply to puppies.
4. What made it great in your mind?
Though very impractical, it's a great idea because so many people can't have pets because either they don't want the troubles of a pet or someone in the family is allergic. This would be a great place for them to come and play with kittens, and then not worry about taking care of them. And if they really wanted to, they could adopt.
5. What is the dumbest idea you've ever had?
I am always thinking of really stupid things. The worst was probably the puppy parkour training center. That would just lead to a lot of animal injuries. (Also, I seem to do a lot of thinking about what to do with animals. I honestly don't know why.)
6. What made it stupid?
Besides the fact that I could kill a lot of dogs in the process? It would really serve no purpose. It'd just be another dumb trick your dog could do.
7.Can you connect the dots that led you this idea?
Well, I remember I was in gym class with Jessica, and we were talking about parkour training and whatnot. Then, it just came to me. It sounded good in my mind and then I really started developing the idea, and then realized how stupid it really was.
This probably wasn't my first, but I remember when I was seven or eight and had just started playing bass clarinet. I was really excited about it, and my teacher at the time had given me a solo to work on. I wasn't the biggest fan of it, so I figured, how hard could it possibly be to write a song? So I gave it a go. It was called "Bear Dance" and it wasn't very good, but considering I was seven and knew (and still know) nothing about how to compose a piece of music, I'm impressed I got as far as I did.
2. Was there anyone there to witness it or appreciate it?
No. It was just me, alone in my room, trying to figure out how to compose. I never even showed it to my parents, but I liked it that way. I always shared everything I did with them, and this was the first time I didn't.
3.What is the best idea you've ever had?
The best idea? Probably the Come and Play with a Kitten Center. It's where there's a place (basically a giant playground built for kittens) for people to come and play with kittens. There would also be an option to adopt. It could also apply to puppies.
4. What made it great in your mind?
Though very impractical, it's a great idea because so many people can't have pets because either they don't want the troubles of a pet or someone in the family is allergic. This would be a great place for them to come and play with kittens, and then not worry about taking care of them. And if they really wanted to, they could adopt.
5. What is the dumbest idea you've ever had?
I am always thinking of really stupid things. The worst was probably the puppy parkour training center. That would just lead to a lot of animal injuries. (Also, I seem to do a lot of thinking about what to do with animals. I honestly don't know why.)
6. What made it stupid?
Besides the fact that I could kill a lot of dogs in the process? It would really serve no purpose. It'd just be another dumb trick your dog could do.
7.Can you connect the dots that led you this idea?
Well, I remember I was in gym class with Jessica, and we were talking about parkour training and whatnot. Then, it just came to me. It sounded good in my mind and then I really started developing the idea, and then realized how stupid it really was.
Wednesday, May 16, 2012
Now We're getting Somewhere.
Didn't work on the film project today. I really did not feel like doing anything with it, especially since no one else in my little collaborative group was in today.
So I watched a little bit of Run Lola Run. Saw up to where she gets kicked out of her father's office, and I'm really enjoying it so far.
Read Julian and Jessica's scripts, and hopefully gave them some good feedback. I'd like to think I did.
But, as I was going over one of the scripts, Julie asked me to stand up and help her with a few things she wanted to try for her dance. And I thought "what harm could it do, it's not like she wants me to be in it."
And then, the unthinkable happened.
She asked me to be in her dance with her. My head was screaming at me not to do it, but my mouth said otherwise. Truly, I'm glad I did. Life's no fun without trying some new stuff and without breaking a few of your own personal boundaries. I'm still a bit hazy on what it's really about, but that will be figured out probably tomorrow. This side project is going to be great, I'm sure of it.
So I watched a little bit of Run Lola Run. Saw up to where she gets kicked out of her father's office, and I'm really enjoying it so far.
Read Julian and Jessica's scripts, and hopefully gave them some good feedback. I'd like to think I did.
But, as I was going over one of the scripts, Julie asked me to stand up and help her with a few things she wanted to try for her dance. And I thought "what harm could it do, it's not like she wants me to be in it."
And then, the unthinkable happened.
She asked me to be in her dance with her. My head was screaming at me not to do it, but my mouth said otherwise. Truly, I'm glad I did. Life's no fun without trying some new stuff and without breaking a few of your own personal boundaries. I'm still a bit hazy on what it's really about, but that will be figured out probably tomorrow. This side project is going to be great, I'm sure of it.
Wednesday, May 9, 2012
Project Update #5: Now We're Getting Somewhere!
Well today was pretty productive.
Today, Anika, Megan and I tackled the problem of how to keep the position of the model's face (aka my face) the same throughout the stop motion. We came up with ideas along the lines of taping my face down, tying me down, and other things that didn't really seem to get to where we wanted. Somehow, from there, we ended up with the idea of using a block of wood to keep my head in the same position, and that sounded pretty plausible, so we ventured into the STAC room to look for some wood. Upon going in there, we found some wood, but I saw some fishing line and wondered, "well why can't we use that?" So I brought up the idea to the both of them and we decided to test it out. And for the most part, it worked pretty well at keeping the face straight. Now all we need to do is figure out how to keep the strings from showing, but this method is pretty darn effective. Tomorrow, we'll be testing this with the actual makeup.
Today, Anika, Megan and I tackled the problem of how to keep the position of the model's face (aka my face) the same throughout the stop motion. We came up with ideas along the lines of taping my face down, tying me down, and other things that didn't really seem to get to where we wanted. Somehow, from there, we ended up with the idea of using a block of wood to keep my head in the same position, and that sounded pretty plausible, so we ventured into the STAC room to look for some wood. Upon going in there, we found some wood, but I saw some fishing line and wondered, "well why can't we use that?" So I brought up the idea to the both of them and we decided to test it out. And for the most part, it worked pretty well at keeping the face straight. Now all we need to do is figure out how to keep the strings from showing, but this method is pretty darn effective. Tomorrow, we'll be testing this with the actual makeup.
Monday, May 7, 2012
Update #4: Ironing.
Today Was spent ironing out the details of our project, and a little more research on stop motions was done. We've finally decided on the five makeup looks we're going to do (20's, 50's, 60's 70's, 80's and I don't remember the last one). Five seemed like a rational number, given the amount of time we have. One really big problem we're encountering with this project is we don't know WHO to use. Why is this a problem? Beats me. It seems that Anika's reasoning is that using one of us would make the entire thing much harder because this could easily be done with three people, and not so easily with two. But I don't want to put anyone out or prevent them from working on their own projects because that would be inconsiderate, and I think that this is going to take quite some time. Next time we work on this, it's time for storyboarding.
Thursday, May 3, 2012
Tough Stuff.
For the past couple of days, Anika and I have been experimenting with the stop motion portion of our video, and realized it's a lot harder than at least I thought. Some things we learned from experimenting with this is that 1.Consistent lighting and positioning is crucial, and the positioning is not going to be easy. I still need to learn a little more about that. 2. To make a stop motion, you need a lot of pictures. I mean A LOT, to make the film have some kind of flow. So we really have our work cut out for us, but I'm still pretty excited to keep working at this. Oh, and my mind is currently being blown by the wonderful Umberto Eco. I didn't realize what I was getting myself into. But that's okay, it makes me want to get through the not one, but the two of his books I've decided dive into. So far the history of beauty is packed full of ideas of what beauty truly is and I love reading up on this, no matter what. Tough stuff ain't always bad stuff.
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